Will I ever be forgiven?

This isn't really going to be one of those uplifting kind of post, but I do need to do this, so maybe just maybe I can be forgiven.

I have a post where you leave comments about memory's that you have had with me and I received one today that wasn't a good memory, and I am not proud of it. But for years now I am reminded all the time about a comment I made to a friend that wasn't very nice about another. You can go to my comments to see who it was if you would like, but I just want to say this.

You know how you say things and they get twisted and it wasn't quite what you said, well that is the case. I am not saying what I said was ok, but I never said what you are accusing me of.
I told him that I thought he could do better, and that was wrong of me. I am guilty of prejudging you. I am guilty for saying what I said and I am not proud of it to this day. I have never forgotten how I hurt you. Just the other day Buck and I were talking about it. I don't intentionally say things to hurt other people. I don't like to hurt other people, and it hurts me that I hurt you that bad. I know what it feels like and I am so sorry! I have been apologizing for years, and you have never forgiven me. I hope one day you can! I want you to know that you are a very beautiful woman and Jared is so lucky to have you. I couldn't think of anyone better for him.

This is for anyone else I have hurt. I would like you to leave a comment telling me what I did to hurt you. Because I would love to apologize and make things right!

Let's go down Memory Lane!

Ok so I saw this on Kristen's and Rachel's blogs, and I was afraid to do this thinking that everyone has had a bad memory with me, but I will take that chance. :)
Here are the Directions:

1. As a comment on my blog, leave one memory that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you knew me a little or a lot, anything you remember!
2. Next, re-post these instructions on your blog and see how many people leave a memory about you. If you leave a memory about me, I'll assume you're playing the game and I'll come to your blog and leave one about you.

The Book of Mormon REMIX

Alright you guys Buck has new lyrics to Book of Mormon Stories, and the only reason he does is because he was late to priesthood and they volunteered him. So that should be a lesson to all of you not to be late or you will be volunteered for only they know what. So our ward is having a social this Saturday and the Priesthood are suppose to put on a skit, and when Buck showed up late to class they told him that he was in charge of putting it on. We had no idea what he was going to do. Yeah that is right "We" he roped me into helping him. But I was no help because I passed it on to my sister to redo the instrumental part. All of you that know my sister; know that she is a genius when it comes to music. So she dubbed the soundtrack for us. It starts with the little primary children singing and then it screeches. ( like a record being scratched, if that makes sense) and then it pauses for Buck to say, " What about the stories your teacher didn't tell to you?" then music begins to play, the instrumental part only. So here are the words, and what you are going to have to do is pretty much sing it. But first I would like to apologize to anyone who may be offend to one of the choice words that Buck put in here, but don't worry the verse will not be used at the social and believe you me, you will know what verse it is when you see it.

So here we go and remember to sing or it will sound funny:

Lemuel and Lamen, they were brothers to Nephi
Their hatred of him would often make their parents cry
Any love they showed for him, deep down it was a lie
In their hearts, they just wished, that he'd die.

Amulek and Alma, listened to the people cry
Burning in a bonfire is not how they'd planned to die
It was not enough that Alma preached from door to door
His son forsook the church for a whore (sorry)

The Jaredites were once highly favored of the Lord
Turning unto evil, they forgot about His word
As the story goes, we know their peace they could not keep
It's because, they'd become, spiritually asleep

They became so wicked; they were evil to the core
Sin and evil, as it always does, it led to war
Fighting all day, they did not get tired of the gore
Craving blood, everyone, wanted more

By Coriantumer and Shiz the people were led
Fighting towards a demise any normal guy would dread
They fought and they fought, till almost everyone was dead
Fin'ly, Corantumer chopped off Shiz' head


Jesus came to visit; they had peace two hundred years
Still they turned to sin and war, and brought Mormon to tears
Looking at death and carnage; he just had to ball
"Oh ye fair, ones oh how, could ye fall?"

A happening day at G-mas

So Friday Nuttles and I headed up to Eugene to be with the Fam! We had a wonderful time. After running some errands we went to the park to fly a kite even though there wasn't any wind according to Jay! The whole family was there besides Buckland because of course he was with his wife. Wife you say? Aren't you his wife? Well technically I am, but really I call myself his mistress because he is always at the store. He is pretty much married to that
place. Sometimes it bothers me, but I am getting use to it. So no I am not resentful!

Anyways, my dad decided to do the airplane to Nuttles and so he started spinning and then he put her down and she was so dizzy, she would try to walk and then spill. Then she would try to get up and walk again, but she still didn't have it. It was so funny. Your probably thinking that, that is horrible and not funny! Oh contrare my friend, it was funny!

It is always great being with my family, it puts me at peace and in good spirits. They mean the world to me. I always feel good when I am with them, because they love me unconditionally and the never judge. They are always making me laugh and I feel that I can be my crazy self with them. They are my best friends. I LOVE YOU GUYS! XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

That was Exhilarating!

Wasn't to sure what to think when I put her in there. What kills me is that she didn't stand up once, but in the bath tub I can't get her to sit still.




She had dirt on her fingers so she was wanting me to get it off!



Holy cow that was a blast! NOT! So we bought Nuttles a little kiddy pool because well, we wanted to. Anyways I blew it up yesterday so she could get in after her nap and all she did was sit in one spot and smile every once in awhile. Good times. I wanted to get one of those 4 footers but Buck doesn't want to because it will kill his grass. What an old man I tell ya. I can appreciate that he doesn't want to ruin his backyard but come on, we are getting bored around here. Let me put it to you like this: You head into a salon to get a hair cut and after the gal is done she asks you , "How do you like it?" and you say, "It is great, the best cut ever!" Which really is a lie! So you head home and you ask your husband if he likes it. And he says, "Yeah babe it is really great!" as he stares at the TV. So you rant and rave about how horrible your hair looks and all he says is, "It will grow back!" See the yard is the same way. OK not really, but you get what I am saying. The grass will grow back! I hope you can all agree with me, and the husbands well don't have to state their opinion because it is not needed now because the TV is more important.

That darn Cat!

Oh yes bath time, a wonderful time when Nuttles won't stay sitting down in the tub and Juan "De-De" won't get out of the tub. That cat loves to be in the shower with you or in Nuttles case the tub with her. I came home from shopping today to find my carpet pulled up by the bathroom door. At this point a frowny face came on and I wondered what in the heck has happened to my carpet. So I walk in the bathroom to my dismay I find Juan "De-De'' trying to get in the shower with Buck. We have the glass doors on our tub and Juan was doing everything in his power to get in that shower. So apparently Buck had shut the door to the bathroom when he started his shower and Juan had to get in with him. I don't know what I am going to do with Juan.

HAPPY SLAPPY BIRTHDAY MESSICA!

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY MESSICA
We love you tons!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMA-SEAT-A

HA ha! Yesterday was my mother's birthday, I will not disclose how old she is because a woman never tells her age. We had a great time celebrating her birthday down here in the GREAT city of Roseburg. It was also Graffiti weekend down here, which is big for Roseburg because it is the boringest town ever. So we spent the day, we as in mom, dad, Buck, Jay, me and Nuttles; we spent the day at River Forks park walking around looking at all the old cars and some new cars. They had some awesome ones! Then later that night we went to the big cruise they have downtown.
I don't mean this to be rude or offensive to anyone but did the whole trailer park come to see the cars. You bet, swearing and cigarettes everywhere it wasn't a very warming place, but we made it a happening place to be you bet your bottom, we had fun! Dad ran into one of his friends from work who had an old Chevy, so Dad and Jay got to take a ride around the parade. That made my Dad's day! So here are some pics of our fantastic day of fun!
We also hung out at the house for a little bit and oh boy did Nuttles make us laugh. She was trying to help my dad read a catalog and she also tried to help Juan "De-De" get to his destinations. It was pretty funny! Juan "De-De" was not hurt in the process of filming. We is one tough cat.

Mom you will hate this!

So I am just sitting there eating my lunch when all of a sudden Nuttles starts whining, so I go to pick her up to put her down for her nap. When I then realize she is sitting there playing with an earwig. Oh my gosh, she was just messing with it in her little fingers, So that is why she was whining. Buck and I have an disagreement about earwigs. I swear they pinch and he doesn't think so. When I was younger I sat down in the back seat of a friends car when I feel this horrible pain on my bottom. So I stand up to find out what the heck just hurt me and there was an earwig under me. I swear to this day that they pinch, but Buck doesn't think so. He says they are harmless. NOT SO! Yuck! I knew that would gross you out mom.

So some of you are wondering why in the heck I named the kitten Juan. Well we always wanted to adopt a Mexican. No, no just joking! I have nothing against Mexicans they are great workers. Well when I went to get him they needed a name right then, which was kind of weird to me. So the first thing that came out of my mouth was Juan. I wasn't even thinking, which is nothing new. So yeah that is where it came from, out of nowhere!

The newest member of our pak!

Nuttles having dinnerOh look who decided to join her!

Well here is Nuttles with her new kitty Day-Day! Your probably asking what kind of name is that, well we asked her what she wanted to name her kitty and that is what she said. So when I take him to the vet his name is Juan. So his full name is: Juan Day-Day Beckenhauer!
Your probably wondering why we have so many pets and well all of you that know me, know that I am a BIG CAT person. I always figured that I would never get married and end up an old lady with like 20 cats. So that plan didn't pan out, but 3 down and 17 to go!
No they are not all in the house. Milo and Bits are outside cats, Juan Day-Day is an inside cat and Bair the dog is mostly outside except at night he comes in the house. This little kitty is the sweetest! But the problem is he is always trying to nurse on me. It is quite annoying! But he is cute, plus Buck likes him.
When I met Buck his family only knew me as Cat woman, because my family and I had a lot of cats. We only had 4! So whatever it is all good. Anyways Buck told me it was ok to get a little one for Nuttles. I think secretly he wanted a kitten too.

So here is Nuttles having her dinner and Day-Day didn't want to be left out so he decided to join her. She didn't like it at first and kept pushing him off her highchair, but she gave up.

Independence Day!

Merry Independence Day or is it just Happy 4th of July? Anyways we had a blast hanging with my crew. That would be my family. We went up to Eugene to spent the 4th with my family. We had a BBQ and celebrated in pyrotechnics. It was a blast, we had a lot of fun but we had to take turns tending to Nuttles, because she hated the fireworks. She cried if you even had a smoke bomb going. She was not enjoying it at all. I hope next year when she a little older that maybe she will like it more.
As we were sitting there watching Jess and Jay lighting fireworks, we look to their neighbors house and we see something burning. And it kept getting bigger and bigger. That's when my brother had to take a hose to it. Something in their yard was on fire and they were nowhere to be found. They were inside! So that was kind of exciting. But anyways we had a wonderful time, it was perfect.